The Secret Melody

twitter

2012-02-08T13:17:00.000-08:00

sometimes

twitter has really good quote that made my day

today's quote was one of my friends

"Never try too hard to fit in that you forgot where you came from"

recently, i kind of feel that

nobody notices me

so i was trying to fit in

and did not show my true self

i was frustrated and disappointed

but

i realized that i dont have to be fit in

i just need to find someone who fits with me

and again, i want to have my own world

which can inspire other people

inspired

2012-02-07T11:55:00.000-08:00

suddenly inspired by a person

who's close to me

i wish i also has that certain atmosphere

inspires people

i want to be myself

with complete aura

that covers the whole mood

being classy

2012-02-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

i just decide to leave all the problems behind

it's just eating my brains

and minds

after i left them

the freedom comes and peace placed in my mind

less thinking is less concerned

nostalgic

2012-01-26T12:17:00.000-08:00

sometime

i wish i could go back to the old times

when i used to have

deary people around me

2012

2012-01-09T02:52:00.000-08:00

guess

its time to reset myself

and

try my best again

let another year to be

brightened

FINNNNAAAAALLLLLLLLLL

2011-12-07T20:49:00.000-08:00

no worried

hard work will never betray you

just do your best

good luck

everyone

:3

2011-12-06T18:17:00.001-08:00

i hope everyone can win their finals

and

have a great holidays

let's do this!

already december

2011-11-30T19:21:00.000-08:00

can't wait for winter break

can't wait for Christmas

can't wait for next year

it's love

2011-11-07T16:01:00.000-08:00

it's love

that you and i are falling into

♡

hope it ends happily

ever after

그날의 우리

2011-10-24T12:11:00.000-07:00

baby my love

그날의 우리

슬픈기억..

아 모르겠다

요새는 모든게

다 슬프고

눈물나고

가슴아프다

my heart is beating

2011-10-20T20:14:00.000-07:00

my heart is beating

all my emotions are toward to him

i cannot avoid his every actions

i cannot ignore his every words

you bit by bit invading my world

and

you slowly absorbed into my hearts

oh, well

2011-09-23T13:44:00.000-07:00

i just feel like

im not doing very well

i gotta wake up

and straight up

and keep things in order

gahhhhhh

not getting A is already sad

and the quiz was C :(

so depressing

ill do better next time

promise to

you

and

everyone else

loneliness in the middle of crowd

2011-09-06T12:16:00.000-07:00

the lonliness pouring over me

without any notice

i have not expected it to came over me like this

i'm in the middle of the crowd

the crowd of niceness and kindness

but,

that never fulfill my expectation

do i have to be so eager to find someone

in this devasted place?

should i be the one who tells people to be like me?

i don't call this homesick

i just miss my old people around me

who understand me

so much better than these people

they are not bad, and they didn't do anything wrong

it's just me

about me

what's wrong

2011-08-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

i feel super useless

i dont want to do anything

sick of people around me

sick of taking care of other ppl's opinion

i think i'm going to break

if someone or something touch me right now

is it hormones or me?

super emotional right here

confused

2011-08-25T22:56:00.000-07:00

seriously confused

i know what i am doing

but when i'm around something

i dont want

i feel extremely akward

and

lost, puzzled

don't do anything stupid

would be the most

wise thing i can do

in that case

people do have their own thing

how do you do?

2011-08-06T06:01:00.000-07:00

if everyone did it

if you did it

then

i can do it

as well

so back off

and

watch me

i feel like not going anywhere

2011-08-02T03:00:00.000-07:00

i hate ppl reply me late

super annoying

if they dont answer

im stuck

cant do anything

so annoying

do they think it makes them look cooler

somehow

if you dont interact with ppl ?

they call it

a technique

what kind of?

to make sick of them?

well, in that case

you guys are excellent at it.

hopeful

2011-07-30T04:27:00.000-07:00

althought

someone said

that my situation is hopeless,

i don't think so.

because i never treated myself as a failure

and

moreover,

i'm not afraid

i believe that

still dreaming something

is already hopeful

enough

P.S

i haven't

blogging in english

recently :P

summer times

2011-07-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

hot

and

dangerous

young

and

vivid

korea

2011-06-16T19:11:00.000-07:00

long time no see

how do you do

with my sister

depressed

2011-06-05T04:26:00.000-07:00

there are many reasons why im so depressed

1. im not going to see him anymore

and it's hard to see him

in limited time

2. F1 visa is so annoying as well as my mom

3. im sick of : sore throat, coughs, headache,

and too much worrring

4. nolstagically emotionall

5. my father

6. the situation i cannot do anything

to fix

hmm

2011-06-03T18:57:00.001-07:00

sometimes

you have to beg

to get something

you want

: )

alumni

2011-05-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

Surabaya International School

Class of 2011

new

2011-05-14T23:36:00.001-07:00

yes,

cut my hair

ohh

2011-05-07T23:04:00.000-07:00

just thinking

i need to lose some weight

and i drink this tea

but totally not working

from tmr,

im starting a hardcore diet

before prom

yay, who's with me?

sure you know why

2011-05-06T06:37:00.001-07:00

i did it

because

i mean it

dont ask me

why i did it

obviously

i did it

because

i want to

annoyed and happy at the same time

2011-05-02T05:22:00.000-07:00

you'll never know

how i feel about you

right now

because

you don't care

and

you don't even know me

i know it's my fault

that expecting something from you

and

it's all about me

and

i'm the one who was drama queen

i'm just over-reacting

and

over-thinking

yes, i am the dumb

but

did you notice it?

i'm more happy

without

you

tattoo

2011-04-23T17:59:00.000-07:00

it's henna tho

gonna miss it

after 2 weeks

:'(

annoyed

2011-04-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

you are so annoying

you think you are the best

but actually you are not

you are just little bitch

who wants to get attention from everyone

here, get the attention

and fuck off

chilling

2011-03-25T22:41:00.000-07:00

spring break

doing nothing basically

very chilling

feel like im useless

but who cares

spring break yes!!

2011-03-18T06:49:00.000-07:00

everyone planned

crazy spring break?

haha

me, gonna go JK

and hibernate

and diet

and hang out

yessss!

stressed

2011-03-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

i am so stressed about diet

i just did this calculating thing

and it told me

i have to lose 15kg

are you kidding?

whatever im on it anyway

thats me in the picture btw

most recent

cute huh? :P

rainy days

2011-03-04T05:26:00.001-08:00

raining hard

no use of umbrella

or that tent thing

literally took shower

while waiting the car

UIUC

2011-02-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

Class of 2015

College of Media

Advertising

Fall 2011

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyay!

2011-02-21T03:28:00.001-08:00

thanks to everyone

im so happy

ive got admitted to my top uni!!!

i love it

and

i appreciated it so much

i danced whole day

and

i can hug everyone now!!!

muaaah muaaaah

sick

2011-02-14T13:24:00.000-08:00

yes,,,

i just came back from malaysia

but im so sick

not good not good

my blogs are so popular ♥

2011-02-08T03:50:00.000-08:00

i have 3 blogs

2 in blogspots and 1 in egloos which is in korean

whatever that is

they are POPULAR in some kind of ways

yay!!!!

whatever

im so happy now cuz i've got nothing to do

just need to go to Malaysia

on Thursday

Dont miss me too much

Chinese New Year

2011-01-31T02:48:00.000-08:00

from my art teacher, Mr. Brown - ie

gongxifacai!!! ppl

im going to celebrate

chinese new year with my friends

in ZOO!!

almost there

2011-01-30T04:13:00.000-08:00

going to read

all those books and more

im working on

increasing "knowledge"

as my mami said

well..

i'm watching more movies tho..

wootwoot

2011-01-25T03:49:00.000-08:00

no more complex thinking

thank god

seriously

:)

2011-01-22T16:33:00.000-08:00

today

i can smile the whole day

may be like this week?

i'm not sure but

wtv

>.<

I'm sososososososossoso happy

and

thankful to my savior

i feel so not confident

2011-01-22T08:06:00.000-08:00

it's because

i was not right

and

it was super embarrassing

why

i feel weak

2011-01-20T05:26:00.000-08:00

is it because im lethargic in indonesia?

im just too lazy to exercise?

again

2011-01-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

hi ppl,

my skills is back

being photogenic

hahahahahahahaha

i'm happy

hahhhhhhhhhh

2011-01-18T01:20:00.000-08:00

super annoyed

why that school

being so bitchy?
so annoying

chocolate!!

2011-01-12T01:09:00.000-08:00

today

i ate various types of chocolates

haha

it was so much

but it's okay

because i liked it

: P

i like them

2011-01-11T01:17:00.001-08:00

i like big animals

such as blue whale

elephants and etcs

just saying

: P

btw

it was my first day of school

haha

im back to indonesia

wowow

2011-01-08T05:08:00.000-08:00

one of the famous place in seoul

Cheong Gye Cheon

do you see the ice next to moi?

2011 and more

2011-01-02T15:53:00.000-08:00

yes, first post

im going out today

which i did yesterday

and im going to do it

more this week

tee hee

whatever

happy new year ppl

what's my goals of 2011

1. diet: -10

2. university (+scholarship)

3. earn money

4. meet my besties

5. have good senior year

6. be nicer

yeah! not so bad

2011

2010-12-31T17:48:00.000-08:00

beginning of 2011

i ate ice cream

random :D

hope that everyone will have

very nice 2011

(especially for me)

its so weird

in korea, it's already new year

but it is not in US

and the other parts of the world

haha

so it is classified as 2010's

last post

tee hee

whatever

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2010-12-31T06:26:00.001-08:00

because im sick

thanks to mother nature

what a experience

whatever

good bye 2010

good to have you

i want warmness

2010-12-30T03:32:00.000-08:00

snow is good

only in pictures

reality sucks

i want warmness

snowy days

2010-12-29T03:44:00.001-08:00

snowing so much

when it's snowing

it's not cold

before snowing

it's super cold

ohh

2010-12-26T03:20:00.000-08:00

christmas picture

merry christmas eve

2010-12-23T17:02:00.000-08:00

im going to bake christmas cookies

im having terrible nose running

korea is super cold

during christmas

so im considering white christmas

teehee

whatever

Merry Christmas eve!

new haircut

2010-12-22T01:40:00.001-08:00

short

but cute

>.<

:(

2010-12-21T17:21:00.000-08:00

i don't know

what should i do

im doing my best....

to be honest it's no one fault

it was just everyone trying to be better

i know it is hard but i also know

that everything turn out to be okay

if i keep believe in Him and myself

let's not be a pessimistist

i know i can succeed at the end

i know that it is very nervous

very big decision for my future

it's okay

i'm fine and going to be okay

early christmas

2010-12-21T04:51:00.001-08:00

my friend took this picture

in Korea

yessss the trees are so cute

as well as me :P lolz

happy pre christmas season

KOREA

2010-12-19T03:29:00.000-08:00

tee hee

my sister took this cute pic

YAY!!

2010-12-18T05:51:00.000-08:00

im in korea

and

i made my account into gmail

korea

2010-12-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

me in 2008 winter

Korea

yes,

im going to KOREA tmr!!

super duper excited

argggggg!

2010-12-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

yes, im very aggressive now

why some kid always

get advantages?

that is so not fair

i just want to slap this "woman"

she never does her work

dont get why she still work at our school

god,,, ppl just making me crazy

btw my english exam turn out

so-so

safe!!

2010-12-13T05:31:00.000-08:00

today

i guessed 5 vocabs

on english exam

and all of them correct

yayyayyayyay

the picture is just random

i have friend and her brother

who look like

mr bean's bear

exam

2010-12-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

it's exam time!!

everyone good luck on exams

i'm only taking 3 yay!

after exam

it's time to have fun!!

wooo

2010-12-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

i cant wait to go to korea

i always go to korea during winter

never stayed in other place

and next week im going

wooohooo!

althought i have exams before that

lost

2010-12-04T22:29:00.000-08:00

im loosing interest in food

getting thinner i hope

im on diet anyways

music

2010-11-25T05:21:00.000-08:00

i just feel so good

because i download

bunch of

such a nice musics

yesterday and today

i hate it

2010-11-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

i dont like my situation now

so bad

my grades are going down

and collegeboard betrayed me so bad

what the hell

i did i choose it so late

and why did i just didnt keep everything up

i regret so much

i just hate it

i just hate the things i have to do

to get what i want

i just feel like hitting everyone

=S

2010-11-23T04:38:00.000-08:00

sometimes

its hard to communicate

although it might burn into a fight

let's just try to figure it out

in good solution

such solution that

everyone can be happy

bye daddddy

2010-11-20T06:40:00.000-08:00

leaving tmr

going back to korea

byebye

for graduation

2010-11-20T02:12:00.000-08:00

i want the white gown

actually our school had blue

but it's very not pretty

my cute candies

2010-11-18T04:06:00.000-08:00

my daddy brought them from korea

its chewy candy

3 flavors: strawberry, peach, grape

but i don't like grape

its called

saekom dalkom

teheheheheh

just ate

2010-11-17T03:57:00.000-08:00

i just ate otchazuche

it's combination of

rice

greentea

hurikake

it was good

thanks my friend, mihayu

who gave me

hurikake >.<

me

2010-11-16T19:00:00.000-08:00

before going out

look kinda scary but still cute

·ᴥ·

okay unisssss!

2010-11-15T04:14:00.000-08:00

i'm currently working on

those personal statements!

it's not a big deal

but im worried

anyways : s

everyone who are applying for unis or college

GOOD LUCK ☆

the reason

2010-11-13T19:51:00.000-08:00

recently

i was very tired

but im okay now

cuz i got dayoff yesterday

however i have test tommorrow

damnit : P

argggg

2010-11-10T05:45:00.000-08:00

im so tired

of this lonnnnnnnng

rehearsals :(

wanna rest

at least ive got my portfolio again

who cares

im actually enjoying it tho

btw

my japanese friend got me

some cute stocking and

yummy cookie for me

:) tehehe

production design

2010-11-08T04:36:00.000-08:00

im doing makeup for

the drama rehearsal

im so good

haha

this is totally what i am going to do for my future

so fun, so professional

and

so enjoyable

photo

2010-11-06T23:22:00.000-07:00

very recent me

:'(

2010-11-06T21:11:00.000-07:00

im grounded

im sick

2010-11-04T05:16:00.000-07:00

dead

sick

much

dead

i miss field trip

2010-11-03T02:18:00.000-07:00

our class is not this small

but most of ppl didnt go to field trip this year

i dont understand because its our last trip

we are senior

end of highschool

no more field trip like this

but i had fun anyway

it was great

i wish i could go Tana Toraja again

with whole class

sometimes

2010-10-30T20:54:00.000-07:00

i really want to hang out with my friend

whole day

without worrying anything about school

and other things

studystudystudy

2010-10-30T05:19:00.000-07:00

those college and university have been killing me gradually since grade 9 hahahaha so sad :( anyhow

im recently putting most of my time to study SAT and TOEFL (I'm international). Toefl is pretty easy and the scores are good enough. however if i fail to go to the unis in states, i need to go back to korea and if i have those scores above average, i could get accepted into gooood unis in korea. :) so i have double chances

not bad, not bad, today i went to get a massage and it is AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im totally going back to Indonesia to get it man! >8-D hahahaha

btw, why not comments on the stuff ppl? n why not follow me? hm? huh?

sorry

birds

2010-10-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

i found this cool picture

from facebook

i like birds

want to have one as a pet

something like parrot

happy halloween

2010-10-29T06:45:00.001-07:00

since halloween is sunday

me and my classmates were M&Ms

which was my idea

we bought the shirt

and dyed them

then we attached the Ms

Kitty

2010-10-29T03:12:00.000-07:00

During my last field trip to Tana Toraja

I met this little kitten

So cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My friend, Karina took this picture and edited